Tuesday, October 13, 2009

A turn in the path on the journey . . .

Wow, I don't even know if I have any readers left. I've been away a long time. I have been in many different places over the last few months, and I don't mean like to Paris or Rome. I have been in a crappy place with my health, both physical and mental. I'm sure they are connected. They have taken me away from the things that I had used to define myself with. My art has suffered, my friendships have suffered, my relationship with myself has been on a downhill slide. I truly did not know if I would want to write about it here, but I feel a need to share my journey honestly with you. The reason I can write about it now is, I have turned the corner into a better place. I am becoming a firm believer in the body/soul connection. Taking care of myself allows me to be better at being the kind of person I want to be. Truth be known, I have not been taking good care of myself for quite some time. I allowed myself to gain a lot of weight, I didn't eat to nourish my body or my spirit well, I put my head in the sand about health issues because I didn't want to deal with them. Well, that has had a way of catching up with me. Diagnosed with diabetes, fatty liver (sounds awful doesn't it?!), and still a few more things to check out, I have had to come to grips with my health and I am feeling better for it. I don't want this blog to be about my health issues, and I personally will find this very boring if I have to write about it much longer, but I feel I need to explain my absence from this place I have liked to come to and have been missing. My creative juices are starting to flow again. I am listening to an urge that is telling me to create with my own voice. I am glad to be back. In my isolation, I have missed being with you.


Molly Alexander said...

Deborah, I am so glad you are back - know you are loved and have been missed!

:-) Molly

Fanciful Expressions said...

Deborah, glad you've come back. I miss you when you're not here. I understand how poor health can bring you down. I'm really hoping that you'll be feeling better but take your time and do what's best for you.


The Artful Eye said...

Glad your back Deborah and I hope you're doing better. It sounds like you're making some strides. Keep your chin up. We need to get together real soon.

xox Andrea

Brenda said...

I found you through Mystele's blog. Just wanted to say hello. I was struck by your entry of "women of color". You did a beautiful job with the faces. But, what really stood out to me is that one of your favorite books is "Quiet Talks with the Master". This is at the top of my list. I read it every morning. I have had it for over 20 years. But, these last 2 years I have been reading it, starting over and reading it again. I find new thoughts at every reading. It starts my dailey devotional.

jackieb said...

Gosh I think you could be writing about me :} I hope I can gather strength from your post and try to get healthier and in turn, happier.
If have to to keep going, let's take the path up to happiness.
Thanks for sharing.